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Hey, this is Jeremy writing this post. Rachel and I received word last Thursday the 20th of October that we were not pregnant. Words cannot express how devastated we were to hear this news, especially after all of the positive news and momentum that we were riding. We will always have a closeness and a bond to our two miracles no matter what and will not go a day without thinking about them. Currently, we are using this time to grieve and discuss options with our doctor before we begin to plan our next steps. We do thank God for our other 8 embryos that we were so fortunate to be able to freeze.

This is an open letter to Rachel about our journey thus far and our desire to have children:

The news we heard last week to me was numbing at first. In no way was I naive enough to think that hearing that news was not a possibility, but it was still so unbelievable. With all of these hoops we've had to jump through and roadblocks we've encountered, it's tempting to let dangerous thoughts enter our minds like, "What if we never become parents?".

A fellow classmate of mine in my program at Trevecca spoke to me about the infertility he and his wife went through. He spoke to questions and doubts such as these, sharing with me that he and his wife experienced the same feelings. Upon speaking with a pastor at their church he comforted them by telling them that God placed this desire in their hearts of wanting to be parents for a reason. Unless this desire is removed by God, we shouldn't ask questions concerning our fitness, ability, or role in becoming parents. And to be honest, I can't envision this desire ever leaving our hearts. Finally, with God still allowing this desire in our hearts, it is so important for us to remember that God does work miracles every day! I love you and cannot wait until you are the mother of our children!


"You are the God who performs miracles; you display your power among the peoples."
Psalm 77:14